Two weeks. Two…friggin…weeks. How have I gone that long without writing something here?
I really enjoy writing stuff in blog form, so one would think I’d be a little more consistent about it. The biggest reason I like it is because I feel it helps me in overcoming one of my biggest personal concerns. I have, for years, felt disconnected. Like the world goes on and I don’t quite catch it in the way I would like. I have felt that I don’t appreciate everything to the level that it has enough personal meaning, creating the kind of lasting memories I wish I would have.
This isn’t to say that I’m perpetually shallow and blind to what happens around me. Or that I’m disengaged from reality or anything. My family thinks that I’m probably overly worried about something that isn’t any different from anyone else. But…it isn’t how I want to be. Seriously, just because something is how “most everyone else is” hasn’t ever been a good reason for me to leave something unchanged. Though some things may be harder for me to get my teeth into.
So how does blogging relate to all this? Coming up with things to write about, and the desire to write something well, forces me to concentrate a little more on the smaller things. I try more to pay attention to the details, because there is where the interesting bits are found. And that totally makes sense to me, because my job is all about the details of experiences. Ironic, no?
So not writing sucks for me. I blow the opportunity to commit those details to myself as much as to words on the screen. Plus, I blow the opportunity to write some stuff that doesn’t make sense to go on about outside of the timeframe they come around. Sure would have been great to flip some stuff about scientists saying the world’s helium supply will run out in 30 years.
So, in short, yes I’m still here. And yes I’m going to get better about doing this regularly and making putting my thoughts down a higher priority. Because while it’s about you too, it’s really all about me!
